I have reached a milestone in my life where i have gotten married and i reached the big 3.
But things don't seemed to be too smooth for me this year. So many unhappy things have happened, my cough, my job .....
these things don't seemed too big, yeah... it's not like a life and death issue. Maybe I have been leading a life too smooth?
I guess not.
I recall every part of my life i encounter some difficulties. broken relationships, problems with family, studies and so on. After i graduated, life has been a bit more stable.
The point that I want to acknowledge that I have yet to accept failure in life. I have never failed a single exam in my life ( i mean major ones), i have always been outstanding at work, i have a happy marriage, etc.
Recently, i had some disappointments at work. I really felt that I have never been so mistreated in my whole career life. I slogged like a slave and I achieved results. I am a competent worker and I deliver my stuff on time and in good quality. But recently, I fell and I feel like I have been super mistreated by my superiors.

Someone spoke God's word to me before - Vengeance is His.
I have been thinking about this for some time, I have been trying too hard to take things into my own hands. By doing this, i have hurt people and in the end I gained nothing.
I should not be the one trying to get even. I should just let God solve these problems.

It's tough that I have to keep telling myself to love the people who have hurt me. Anyway, i need to surrender all these negativity and hurts and vengeful feelings to the Lord. I pray for the Holy Spirit to comfort me.

"Do not say, I will recompensate evil; wait for the LORD and He will save you" - Prov 20:22.